I was watching bits of a 60 Minutes segment online the other day about how Denmark is the happiest country in the world because the people living there have lower expectations for their lives than in other countries, and I promptly forgot about it until today when I thought YES. That really is the problem, isn't it? We (as in the royal we, as I don't know if this is how anyone else feels) expect great things of ourselves - we can be successful, rich, well-educated, have anything new that we want, etc. etc., so long as we put our minds to it, go to college, go to church, be involved, be pro-active, want to help others before we help ourselves, be risk-takers, be the best we can be, plan ahead, don't sit on our laurels, invest our money, market our strengths, excel at multi-tasking, be go-getters, butter up the boss, lend a helping hand, manage our time, be individuals, be tenacious, think positive, don't let the little things get us down, stop to smell the roses, have ambition (but not too much), and be true to ourselves.
That's utterly ridiculous. No wonder I feel so stressed and had the mother of all migraines Thursday evening where I thought I had meningitis and was sobbing into a blanket and thought I was going to DIE.
So here's to lowering my own expectations for myself. I'm going to just keep saving my money, finish out this quarter (or semester, whichever it'll be), and THEN worry about getting into grad school or getting another position somewhere. I am not a multitasker; I work best when I'm focused on one large project at a time. I accept that of myself; the toughest task is getting other people to see the same thing without stepping on anyone's egos. That's a project in itself.